I’ve been a grumpy wee so and so these past few days; I’m tired, I’m huge and I seem to keep grasping at things to fret over to keep the negativity nicely topped up. A grey cloud has settled on me and I wish it would piss off, not least because it’s taking it’s toll on my 3 boys. I was telling Caleb about how I was feeling and saying sorry for being a grumpy mummy, ‘That’s ok Mummy, I think when the baby comes out you’ll feel better’. I thought I’d better manage expectations by explaining that Mummy won’t be getting much sleep when the baby comes and still might be a wee bit grumpy at times. Bless, he’s very forgiving which is just as well.
Jayber is being his legendary supportive self although even he has had to send me to the naughty step a few times this week for my temper. Yikes.
So, I’m going to try a bit of thankfulness now, I need to remind myself that the reality of my circumstances are actually enormously better than my current capacity to enjoy them. So, today’s highlights in no particular order:
- watching Eli flirt with people in the hairdresser’s. Too cute.
- getting my hair done, bye bye roots, hello blondie
- listening to Caleb make up stories about his lego men and their body swapping
- the anticipation of a warm bath with the special bath stuff and a new novel, both bargains.
I’m off to get my minions (that’ll be the long-suffering Jayber) to run me a bath
(he even lights the candles for me, I think I’ll add him to the list)
